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Lost and confused.again.

It's really frustrating when you don't know what your direction is in life. Some people say, "Claim your life! You decide who you want to be". Is it truly so? Do we really have the deciding power, or Him above? Some say, God gives us options in life, and we need to be accountable for the decisions we make. He gives us the freedom of choice. But I've also heard of and done prayers saying that "not my will be done, but Yours". The latter implies that God has a will or purpose for each and everyone of us already. So then, it brings me back to the question, who decides our direction in life? Option A: We do. B. God does. C. It's a mix of both. Setting a direction for our own lives is an action resulting from the authority we think we have upon our life. But if we are believers of Christ, this life we have isn't exactly ours, it was ransomed and made new in Christ. We live because of His grace and mercy. Our lives belong to Him. So do we then have the rights to exercise such authoritative power on the decisions we make concerning our life? Then again, not everyone has the gift of hearing God speak to them and telling them if the decisions made are right or wrong. So it's pretty much going by faith!

These thoughts are somewhat contradictory and non-conclusive. And i'm back at square one again.

My point is, i just feel really lost. I've been working for more than 1 1/2 years, and I'm nearly quarter a century old, and I still don't know what my passion in life is, what do i want to major in, what's my direction in life etc etc etc. If i plan for tomorrow, it is as though i'm disrespecting God and boasting about tomorrow when my life is indeed uncertain. But on the other side of the coin, how can one live a purposeful and fulfilling life without setting directions and goals?

Again, square one.

And ever as lost.

Maybe i'm reading between the lines too much. Sigh.

Paragliding @ Penang

This will be ME someday.

And that day is coming soon :)

Can't wait !!

Counting down till that blissful thrilling day arrives...

An experience worth remembering

A month ago, Joshua (Sam's brother) asked if I could help out with his church wedding decoration because the person who was suppose to do it, well, couldn't do it. So as terrifying and desperate as the request sounded, I was actually jumping for joy within because I've never had the experience of being part of a wedding's plan and processes! Plus, it was always a childhood dream of mine to be a wedding planner someday ;)

So, the entire month of planning and sourcing for materials was really stressful, especially with the given budget of RM400 only. But it all worked out well. The effort paid off and it was alot of fun!

Here are pictures of my first stint as a church wedding decorator :)

If you are pleased with the outcome, I'm open for hire in the future!

the aisle (of garlands, fake roses, organza ribbons, and real flower petals)

an upclose shot of the aisle (again)

i just love how the garlands droop at the end of the aisle

pretty :)

right after the ceremony (and probably during as well) kids were dismantling the tiny flower bouquets on the aisle and making it their own!

the stage

2 standees made of red roses and white pom poms, creeping ivy leaves and rose petals

The theme of the church wedding was actually WINE & CHAMPAGNE.

Do you think the deco met the theme? Did it give you the vibe of a vineyard wedding?

I really wanted to do a wooden stick arch, cos I thought that would do the trick but we really had no time and the bride and groom wanted something really minimalistic. Anyhows, i'm glad they liked the final outcome.

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Being part of this wedding plan was really a blessing and a testimonial worth sharing.

Because the budget was so tight, we decided that buying real flowers were way cheaper than fake flowers, especially for the stage deco and the flower standees. Getting the professionals, ie. florist to do it would cost even more. So Sam and I, being all confident that we can do it on our own, we went by faith and did the flower arrangements by ourselves the day before the wedding. After several hours of trying around, i realized we couldn't do it. Our arrangements were so unprofessionally looking and odd. The real thing came out so different from how we envisioned it to be.

So being the worry freak I am, I was really stressed out and emo and panicky. Joshua and Tina deserved something nice, and their entire family and relatives knew I was going to be the decorator. I had to live up to the expectations! I was just so down and emo, and at the verge of giving up. I was also partially annoyed with the wedding coordinator cos it was her suggestion in the first place to go DIY and experiment together. Yet, instead of coming at 4pm, she only came at 8pm!

(When i'm stressed up, I get easily annoyed and pissed off, so yeah, maybe she's not entirely at fault, but it was a big deal to me because the mood i was in aggravated the feelings even more)

Anyhow, she came at 8pm, saw the damage done, and tried to fix it. She suggest we go for a break and take our dinner and so we did. Throughout dinner, I was just thinking and talking to God, pleading for a miracle that when we get back after dinner, He would bless me with green fingers and I would be able to turn things around for good. It took courage to admit to Him that I know I'm really not as good as I think I could be. Truth be told, the situation humbled me.

When i came back after dinner, and saw how she salvaged the damage we had done, I felt really guilty for thinking badly of her in the first place. She's always so smiley, even when the situation was stressful, and she's never NOT smiling. I felt so ashamed of myself cos I'm like the total opposite.

HOWEVER, her being equally inexperienced as we are, the arrangement that she did, though nice, was way too tiny to be placed at the stage. And that's when God intervened, literally.

No, He didn't bless me with green fingers for the next 4 hours, but He sent us a florist, in the most unexpected way! It was Good Friday and just after service, this lady saw us working on the flowers and when we told her our problem, she said she could help us fix it, and make the arrangement look a little bigger! After talking to her a little, getting to know her better, she told us she actually owned a florist a long time ago! Praise GOD!!!!

She helped us out so much that she stayed from 9 pm till 12 pm (with her husband and kids) and got both the standees and the bridesmaid bouquets done! And it looked professionally done, because she was a professional! Praise God, again! Because of her help, I could concentrate on doing up the hall and the other decorations, and Sam could finish up his bestman speech. That night, when we finished up everything, I could rest in peace.

God is just so awesome.

I was proud, and He humbled me, for my own good. But He didn't just stop there. He provided a way out for me as well. What amazing love, and abounding grace. All praise be to God, seriously.

It really was an encouragement for me. And that's why I'm sharing this testimony to all.

Our God is real, and always dependable upon. Remember that, always.

2 Corinthians 12:9 -> "But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."

The 2-minute rhyme

It's great when we both have Skype to talk endlessly with at work. :)

And i present to you, my 2-minute impromptu poem made to rhyme..

"my heart cries out to you,oh romeo..

my every being aches being apart from you..

our love is like milk and oreo..

just as i am better only when with you.."

haha! good one, isn't it?

BUT... i was mistaken to be a racist! haha, calling him oreo and me milk.

Now, back to work... :(

Emo-nya...i feel like quitting...sitting in the office can be such a bore sometimes..

come clean

I wonder if I'll ever get the courage to point out the issue and come clean with how I feel about this. I do feel like neglected. I do feel like we've drifted apart. I do feel left out in all the outings that they had or are planning to have. Since when was i out of the group? Since when did asking no longer became a habit?

Being honest in a relationship/friendship is never an easy thing. If you're too honest, there's a risk of hurting the other party, of things taking a different turn. But honesty is still vital, because a relationship/friendship without honesty is like a stage-play. And that's exactly how I feel about us, right now. We're all acting to be nice to each other. But honestly, there's no genuine feelings of love and care for each other.

The truth hurts. Reality bites. And sometimes, the truth needs to be "treated" before it is let out. But once treated, it is never entirely 100% truth anymore.

Offense / Defense

Confrontation - to do or not to?

What would you do?
Be empathetic and ignorant of the situation, or defend yourself and make the first approach?

Would you play offense or defense?

Would you take the chance when the stakes are high?

Or would you just walk away from it all, completely? Cutting all cords..

Conscience vs expectations - which would you lean on?

There's a fine line to it all.

Valentine love

Happy Be-earlieth Valentines Day & Chinese New Year!

As Valentine's Day draws closer, and knowing we probably won't be able to spend the occasion together due to the CNY festivity, the very thought of having found love in someone as special as him makes me content.

Having someone who keeps calling you "wifey", telling you how beautiful and sexy you are even when your face is pimply and you've been putting on those extra kilos around the waist, and being able to know your thoughts even before you can say them out aloud; these are the simple things that remind me of how blessed I am by God.

It's like God sending me a huge parcel via airmail, with a note attached saying;
"His name is Samuel. Hope you like him, my dear! Took Me awhile to source for this amazing gift for you but it's well worth it."

And who doesn't love suprises and amazing presents! :)
No doubt, the period of waiting for it could have been painful and testing at times - but I'm a firm believer that everything will eventually work out according to His plan.. sooner or later..

So thank you, God - for loved ones.. family, sam, and some friends..
These are the people that keep me going each day, making it easier when life gets hard.
And i love 'em loads. :)

The life equation

What is LIFE?
Some pretty interesting equation of life I got of the internet revealed this of life.

Life + Love = Happy ........ equation (1)
Life - Love = Sad ............. equation (2)

Adding both the equations, (1) + (2) yields:
Love and love cancels. Hence,

2(Life) = Happy + Sad ...... equation (3)

Dividing equation (3) by 2 :

Life = (Happy + Sad) / 2
Life = (Happy/2) + (Sad/2)

Hence,

Life = 1/2 Happy + 1/2 Sad.

Is there a note on my forehead which says "punching bag" ??
Just because you had a bad day, and feel the need to vent, that doesnt give you the freakin right to hurl insensitive comments at me, and expect me to feel alright? to feel numb?
Hello!! I'm not a robot, I have feelings! emotions!
How would you feel if i did the same to you? Hurt, right?
Argghhhh!!! So freakin pissing off..
It's not like i had any part in you making those mistakes, so why the hell are u letting it out on me?
So much for being the good friend and highlighting the problem to you before it gets worse, and yet, u think i have some sort of agenda??!!! You think i'm being bossy/nosy??!!!
Like WTHH???!!!
Workplace just doesn't feel great anymore.
I want to tell you off so much, yet, i cant.. cos thats just not me..
I dont make enemies for fun.
I suffer in silence and let it get to me.
I hope you learn your lesson soon enough.