Help me with my change

I realize I do this alot. Whenever i'm at my lowest feeling frustrated, demoralised, weighed down... I would resort to one thing. I will say this one thing. And I say it everytime.
" I think it's my hair..i think i need to cut it / put on a different style / do something to it..whatever.."
Like seriously! I always blame it on the hair, being too long, flat, boring etc and hence, the weighed down feeling. Any remedial action I take to change must always begin with the hair. I honestly don't know why this obsession with the hair.

Anyway, lately, i've been feeling like crap. My life isn't too bad, I know and I shouldnt be complaining but yet, I'm just so mad at myself. I am living such a horribly lazy lifestyle of no exercise, no massive social gatherings, no studies, no challenge, NO GOAL! Actually, that's wrong. I do have goals! I'm just not doing anything about them. Arrgggghhhhh...

So i've decided. I need to cut my hair. I need to do something different to it, to give me back the self-esteem I need. With great hair, hopefully, comes great confidence. And with great confidence, comes greater enthusiasm to make a change to myself and this horrid lifestyle I'm carrying.

Shaun gave me this offer at my last visit to Trendz.
DYE + CUT + TREATMENT = RM100.
Not sure if the offer still stands but i'll try and ask him next week. I honestly don't know if it's a good deal.. Is it too cheap or expensive? Is it worth it?

** Friends who are reading my blog (i know it's not many) but I would appreciate if you could share your thoughts if it's a worthwhile deal. Cos I'm such a virgin when it comes to hair. All I've ever done to my hair was cut and wash, and a very mild highlight (after much persuasion from Benji, that is). I've never treated it, never permed, never curled, never dyed..so my knowledge is zero in this aspect. I would also need your suggestions on which of the following hairstyles would suit me. Please please pweeeeeaasseee help me out.. here are some pics for your viewing pleasure.

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option 1
not a very practical option cos i would need to keep trimming.
but bangs are so hot. it gives one the confidence to carry the protagonistic attitude.
then again, not everyone looks good in bangs la.

option 2
i'm definitely cutting my hair like this.
but should i dye my hair like this? i kinda like the edgy vibe it gives.
maybe instead of blonde, i'll go for maroon?

blonde seems too punk, more for an artist rather than a chemist. lol

but its the blonde than gives the edgy-ness, i think.

feedbacks pleaseee??

option 3
or would i look better dye-ing my entire head like this? rather than just the fringe?

option 4
very interesting. but definitely wont suit me right?
then again, with slight modifications, minus the irregular lengths, etc it could turn out nice..
hmm...

option 5

honestly, i'm really tempted to curl my entire head / hair like this.

but i dare not take the risk cos if it turns out horrid, i'll have to straighten my hair, and i'll end up looking like a mop instead!

but i really really like her look. would it suit me, you think?

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All comments would be greatly appreciated, peeps. If the haircut turns out well, all who contributed in one way or another with their wise suggestions would be greatly rewarded with a nice dinner. I promise. When I feel good, I'll be even more generous. =)

Plus, i hope you care enough about me to want to help me get out of this rut i'm in by supporting and guiding me through this 1st step of change i take.

Thanks first and foremost, guys!

Jaded

It's been 1 year and 3 months.
Everything seems to be going ok but that missing-puzzle-piece feeling is still there.
The sense of growth as a person has not been accomplished to a significant extent, and life does not seem to advance...
Have i grown complacent?
It's comfortable, yet it makes me feel jaded.
How can that be? They are opposite sides of a coin!
You know you should leave, yet you know it's not time. Your responsibilities do not permit you to.
You want challenge, yet you won't challenge yourself to make a difference.
You want life to be lived to the fullest, yet you dont live it to the fullest.
"What's wrong?" is all you keep asking, and the answer - you never find.
The quest for the missing-puzzle-piece... continues.

Pixie

im such a cam-whore.. but i realise i suck at cam-whoring.

poses / looks - boring!!

but with practice comes perfection.

Got to work on more funky poses next time.

i shall practice more. :)