Gift of time

Today: Day 11 of the Movement Control Order.
5 days 21 hrs / 141 hours (from 22/03/2020 1400hrs until 28/3/2020 0845hrs)  - the longest I've ever stayed indoor without leaving the house.
Had to leave the house this morning for groceries as we were running low on supply. Even at 8.50am there was a queue into the grocer.
Feels surreal that this is happening in Malaysia and in a lot of other countries around the world.
Is the end time drawing near?
 
The statistics are alarming but the fear (of death, of losing a loved one) really kicked in when someone I knew became part of the statistics yesterday.
The fear of returning home after my visit to the grocer. "What if I get infected unknowingly despite all the precautions? What if I'm asymptomatic but end up infecting my loved ones and they succumb to the virus?"
 
Am I prepared if the worse was to happen? I'm not. And the thought scares me.
 
The elusive and temporary gift of time - to be with Carina, to do the chores I've always wanted to do but never had the time to, to rest, to read, to blog - while I still can.
 
They say "live each day like it is your last". Easier said than done.