ardently entwined

I’ve just finished reading the second book to the Twilight series and darn!
IT IS SO FREAKINGLY WELL-WRITTEN!!

The second book is definitely better than the first, because every chapter had a pinch of suspense in it, and as one reads, the images just come naturally to mind, able to keep one glued to the book for as long as it takes..
dammit! it's like watching a movie in your mind!

and i know this because..

I was practically reading; stealing glimpses of the words on the pages of the book while driving!
Yes, I know..it’s dangerous to do that but I couldn’t help it! I had to know what was going to happen next..

Anyway, to sum it all, New Moon gave me the right motivation I needed to get started on a reading spree again. My next book would be Eclipse.
Can’t wait to visit the bookstore soon :)
I have a strong feeling that quite a bulk of my 1st paycheck is going to go to books. Hmm...
I'm so hooked..ardently entwined with the series.

Decision-making and the will of God

Hmm, yesterday's sermon was interesting.

About decision-making and the will of God...the mind-boggling issue that gets everyone thinking..

As Christians, we have always been having the thought or assumption that when there is an "open door" to a certain opportunity in life, we take these open doors as "signs" from God, telling us that this is what He wants us to do or in other terms, basically His will for us. And i have to admit, i'm guilty as charged, falling under that category of mindset as well..right until yesterday..

So often we say this scripted prayer to God, especially in areas of our lives which need major decision making, saying "Lord, if it is Your will, please open a door for me and i will follow" and when circumstances / coincidences in life seem to fit our prayer request, we almost immediately take it as a confirmation from God and thus make our major decision based on that moment's circumstance. It's basically like a man contemplating to buy either a Mercedes S-class or a Proton Perdana and he prays to God for a sign and so happen, on one particular day, right after church, he drives out and sees a few Mercedes on the road, no Proton Perdana at all and coincidentally as well, it was announced on the local media that petrol price will not increase any more than RM2.70 a litre but will drop by 15 cents! Duhh, the signs are there! Of course you should get the Merc! I am sure that anybody in his position would immediately and easily mistaken those coincidental moments as a sign of divine revelation from God!

And what's weird is that, these circumstances or coincidences have significance ONLY when it concerns our lives..when it doesn't, it is just another passing thing.

Should that be the way?

Anyway, a few things i managed to grasp from yesterday's sermon was this. God gives us lots of open doors in life, and not just one. It is His will for us to learn how to make the right decisions and be responsible for the decisions we make. And this is an area which we all need to work on, because we are sometimes afraid to be accountable of our own decisions. Should anything go wrong along the way, it is always easier to put the blame on someone else rather than ourselves. Basically, that's pride already..

A season without love..yet blessed

"I can't believe that it hurts more than it seems
When I lie down all alone, sweet memories come to me
Rain or shine, this pain of mine it subsides by my side
Gives me a reason..for a season without love..."

I thought leaving for a while would help me get over the past, start afresh, be a whole new yet better person altogether but now that i'm back here again, i'm slowly going back to where i left off, to the person i was before leaving. I dont want that.. it just isn't the genuine me, it just isn't the people i want to be around with, it just doesn't feel right.

"I don't know how long it'll take for healing to take place
Only Jesus knows how bad my heart aches
The only comfort I find is when I sit down and pray..."

I need to reject these negative feelings. It isn't about me...it's about who i should be for God.
Why do i even bother thinking about all these demoralising and saddening stuff? I should focus on the good stuff! Oh yeah!

God has been amazingly faithful to me all the time, watching my back in every step i take. When i expected the worst, He suprised me with something better. He gave me great friends when i thought it would have been a lonely journey. He kept me safe (and ALIVE) when i thought it was the end of the road for me. He gave me direction when i thought i had none. He gave me hope when everything seemed hopeless. He gave me assurance and certainty when things were so uncertain. Even when i thought i had overspent and was broke, he turned it 180 degrees around. I had a few hundred extras! There were moments when i felt like breaking down but instead, He gave me strength to overcome. Looking back, He provided faitfhfully for my every need when i needed it most.

I am blessed with His love and knowing that should keep my blues away! :)
Positive in, and negative out! Shoo!
Re-transformation starts now...

BRING IT ON!

After 4 years, I'm finally giving blogging a try again. Every attempt I made resulted in failure, possibly due to the fact that I'm not very much a blogger. Oh well, let's just see how this one goes :)

"Psyched" are the words written on this blog's heading. Few reasons why it is so...

Firstly, I'm a person who's really psyched up on just about everything. I was even psyched up about setting up this blog, like a little kid who was going to get their first barbie doll or toy car! Anyway, I named this baby of mine Psyched because I suppose this is where I should be talking about stuff that makes me psyched, from psychedelic art, music to experiences of life..this baby is gonna be my closet of thoughts and ramblings..

Anyway, wish me the best in keeping this place alive for at least 1 year!
Hopefully this goal isn't too difficult to achieve, cos if not, I'm real hopeless then..hehe..
So yeah, BRING IT ON! :)