Caution: Biohazard

DONT MESS WITH ME.
I'M HAZARDOUS.

Snoopy goes sneaking again!

So, the plan was to sneak into the club's swimming pool every Monday, Tuesday and Friday. Unfortunately, it was raining on and off yesterday. And driving all the way to the club seemed like a foolish idea. That's when a brilliant idea came to mind.

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Snoopy Ally:

Hey Becks, why dont we just try sneaking into the apartment's pool la? At least, if it rains, we still can walk home.. if we get caught, also no big problem will arise. I dont wanna take the risk drive all the way to the club and then cant swim. It's a waste of petrol. This apartment seems like the better choice if we're gonna do this in the long run.

Snoopy Becks:

Yea Yea!! We do that! No matter what, must swim! Yesterday's plan already tak jadi, WE CANNOT PROCRASTINATE!

Snoopy Ally:

Oi..you sure ah?? i'm scared laa...let's think of a plan first la..what to say etc.. in case we get caught or questioned by the guard.

Snoopy Becks:

Dont worry la..we simply say one unit number la...faster go change..

Snoopy Ally:

Wanna lie also lie la properly..what if the unit we give does not exist??

(its pretty obvious that i'm a detailed person, while Becks is the total opposite!)

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Can't really remember every detail of our conversation but after minutes of deliberation, we decided to go ahead with the master plan. We both got changed and the plan went underway. Since the apartment was within walking distance, we decided to walk. It came to this one particular road, with very territorious stray dogs who kept barking at us, trying to sniff our ass the entire time we walked the road. Very VERY traumatizing experience. On our way back, they got even bolder. We could literally feel them breathing down our legs!! Which is why...

"This sneaky stint must never be copied by kids at home. Do only under the supervision of adults."

:)

When we arrived at the guard-house, we pretended to talk to each other and just walk past the guard without giving them direct eye-contact. And, good news is..we made it in...UN-CAUGHT and ALIVE! woohoooo!

First thing we headed straight for, was the mail area, where metal postboxes had each unit number engraved on it. Our lucky winner was unit B-10-05. Now, we have an even better and solid excuse incase we get caught. Awesomeness!

And to sum this whole exciting experience, Becks and i truly had a great time exercising. So good an exercise that we had cramps at the end of it all! Haha! The slight drizzle did not deter us from completing our 20 laps of the tiny pool as well..BUT a consequence out of this little adventure is Missy Ally is now sick, and down with a running nose that will not stop running.

Let's pray for speedy recovery because i have to back-up sing this Sunday! I seriously have a feeling that i'm jinx when it comes to serving in worship. Sorethroat again! urghhh...

Sneaky Snoopy?

I shall commemorate this day as the day Becks and I successfully sneaked into the club's pool for a swim, considering we're non-members. So hurray to our sneaky and devious plans!

To the dear friend who advised me to exercise more, i thank you. I took the first step of making a change today. Will be sneaking in more often as Becks and I have decided to be sneaky every Monday, Tuesday and Friday.

I'm thinking of badminton on Mondays and Tuesdays though; and swimming on Fridays. I heard the gym has low surveillance too! So that could be part of our sneaky plan when we've become bolder.

But now, i just need to get a racquet. and some shuttlecocks! ;p

Anyway, back to the swim. It was good exercise. Much needed indeed. Can't wait for next week.


* It was good to be able to forget the bitterness within for a moment.

The 4 pillars??

I'm ...

physically tired, despite not being involved in any strainous activities;

emotionally tested, thanks to all the rollercoaster-like circumstances in my life;

educationally demotivated, thanks to the lazy bug and the absence of willpower;

but most importantly... i'm still

spiritually seeking God, and His will for me in my life.

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I haven't given up entirely.

I just need to snap out of it.

Can i do it on my own?

Do i need the help of friends? I don't know.

Dependency can sometimes kill.

Dilemma, as usual.

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To Emma...

This is Emma and today, marks a significant time of her life.

Yes, she got baptised today! woohooo!

So here's to you, my dear friend.. congratulations again :)

Hope you have a safe flight back to Kiwi-land tomorrow!

Will miss you much, and i hope, God-willing, we meet again end of the year.

Till then, take care and God bless!

*hugggsss*

Look Out Point : Pictures

the entire view of KL from the observation tower

an upclose shot of KL

the view from the restaurant we ate in

me and J.Tiew. ;)

Attention: All Women

To all the women i know in my life, be it family or friends, young or old, this is for you. I hope it encourages you; and inspires you to be all that you want to be and more. But above all, i hope you discover your self-worth, not in the eyes of the world, but in your own eyes and in the eyes of God.

Say NO to inferiority complex.

Say NO to the voices in your head that says "You are unworthy of anything".

Say NO to suppression.

By Rashmi Anand
Within you is the power
To be all you want to be
Yours is the right to discover
To see all that you wish to see.

You make the ultimate choices
To achieve what you want to achieve
Yours is the only decision
That guides yours thoughts and beliefs.

There is a world you have to experience
There are emotions you must go through,
But through it all you have to remember
The ultimate decision is made by you.

You hold in your hand the ability to recognize yourself,
The ability to realise your fullest potential.
Goddess Woman of the Elements, know yourself.

I'm gonna pack it all into a suitcase, lock 'em up and put it aside. I just can't deal with it right now. Not with the right mind. There's just a fine line between the 2 feelings. I've packed and unpacked these feelings a countless times and oh, how I just despise myself for being so fickle-minded and naive; and terribly vulnerable.

I pretend to be strong, but i'm vulnerable inside. I play along with the pretense, acting like nothing ever happened, when in fact, it keeps me up, giving me sleepless nights. I pray for strength and wisdom to cope with it, but everytime God tries to work something in me, I let my stupid emotions get in the way. And i'm back to square one. I don't think i'm dealing with the situation too well. I hate pretending.

O Lord, my heart and my soul, I give You control. Consume me from the inside out, Lord.

Let justice and praise, become my embrace; to love You from the inside out.

Good thing i have all the ISO 14001 work to stress me out.
In a way, i'm proud of myself, that my boss has entrusted me, someone who's only been with the Company for only 6months, with the responsibility of being the Management Representative for the Company, preparing all the necessary documentations needed for the implementation of the environmental management system. It's a tonne of hardwork and googling and sentence construction and editing, but heck, i love it!
I know, it sounds like a bunch of jargons and gibberish nonsense but just bear with me. I'm ranting! arrrrghhhhh!!

My bloody insomnia is back. I couldn't sleep till 4am this morning. Same problem now and that's why i'm posting my 51th post. Not bad. I made it this far. My previous blogs had at most like what, less than 10 posts? Thinking i'm getting the hang of this whole blogging frenzy and its accompanying "addictiveness".

Urggh. I just want to say a little prayer and sleep it off. There's better things to worry about in the world.

the need to break free but this restricting cocoon is exactly what is needed to be free

The story of the Moth and the Cocoon.

A man found a cocoon of an emperor moth. He took it home, so that he could watch the moth come out of the cocoon. One day, a small opening appeared, and he sat still, watching for several hours, as the moth struggled to force its body through the little hole. Then, it seemed to stop making any progress. It appeared, as if, it had gotten as far as it could and it could go no farther. It seemed to be stuck. Then, the man in his kindness, decided to help the moth. So, he took a pair of scissors, and snipped off the remaining bit of the cocoon. The moth then emerged easily. But, it had a swollen body and small, shriveled wings. The man continued to watch the moth, because he expected, at any moment, the wings would enlarge and expand to be able to support the body, which would contract in time. Neither happened! In fact, the little moth spent the rest of its life, crawling around with a swollen body and shriveled wings. It never was able to fly.

What the man, in his kindness and haste, did not understand was, the restricting cocoon and the struggle, required for the moth to get through the tiny opening, were God's way of forcing fluid from the body of the moth, into its wings, so it would be ready for flight, once it achieved its freedom from the cocoon. Freedom and flight would only come after the struggle. By depriving the moth of a struggle, the man deprived the moth of health.

Sometimes, struggles are exactly what we need in our life. If God allowed us to go through our life without any obstacles, He would cripple us.We would not be as strong, as what we could have been.

A timely serenade..

It was helpless anyway
there's nothing much we could do or say
but darling don't you think it's a shame?
that it had to end this way?
so here's to say goodbye
our love is lost, and we can't figure why
maybe it really is about time; that we finally made up our minds.
soon you'll build new memories
then slowly you'd forget about me
and i would slowly be a distant memory
and it hurts me to know that that's all i'll ever be
that soon i'll just be that someone you used to know
it's not an easy thing for me to shake off our history
i know that's what you want from me but they will always stay with me...

someone you used to know
by Zee Avi / Koko Kaina

Liberation

The truth hurts; yet it is very much needed to liberate me from the current state of denial i'm in.

On a positive note, there's always light at the end of the tunnel. And today, perhaps i did see a glimpse of it, from afar. Not alot of it, but enough to keep me going till i finally reach the end. At least I see my direction now. And it's better than groping around in the dark.

On another note, i'm being positive. And that's a good sign of recovery.

I suppose it was very much needed after all.. as much as it hurts.


Thank you for the brutal honesty.


Cheers :)

Mission Accomplished

Yay! Broga Hill - check!

Now, i;m down with only 4 more places to visit :)

Mission#1 accomplished and its a bloody good feeling. Not to mention, the company was great too.
Thanks (in no particular order) to :-

Ruth, Ben, Lois and Joseph

for accompanying me on this tiny excapade!

You made the experience all the more greater.