dilemma

i really want to get away on the 26th.. but it seems very unlikely that i will be able to..
i know its a selfish attempt but it's something i have always wanted to do for myself..something i've wanted to cross out of the checklist a long long time ago..
i know it all seems silly and last minute and too "adventurous" but where's all the fun if everything was so pre-arranged and predictable?

i wanna get away but i wanna be at the dinner as well..cos its gonna be an encouraging time of sharing and pot-blessing..lots of yummy food..kids to play with.. etc..

i dont know...what do i do?

dilemma..

so many places i wanna go to..yet... :(

blah..